Things aren’t going as I planned. I am nervous about my training, and my life in general.  My big life plans and my giant to-do list are bothersome.

What am I talking about?

Oh, I can tell you what’s going on.  I’m seventeen days away from a huge milestone – an Oly distance triathlon.  For a fatty like me.  Huge deal.

So… what am I talking about?

I am a mental giant.  A self-saboteur. The Original Ms. McSelf Sabotage.  Ridiculous.

I have come so far in a short period of time.  Why is this hard to remember? I couldn’t run one mile (without major cardiac injury) at the start of this journey.  Now, I can knock down five miles with less pain and effort that one mile used to take.  And I am so supported by this great new triathlon community.  What a group of fantastic, genuinely nice, welcoming people.  And here I whine.  Whiny whine whiney pants.

I am going to refrain from sabotaging this mission.  For once in my life.  I am going to complete this St. Anthony’s adventure without fear, frustration or fussiness.

Okay. Maybe not completely.  But I am going to damn well try.

5 Responses

  1. Keep at it girl… YOU CAN DO IT… I know you can 🙂 And for that fact… so can I 🙂

  2. Hey, I go away for a few days and come back to whine whine whiney pants? Hopefully you are over it by now, but if not, YOU ARE GREAT. You're going to do this triathlon, you will feel awesome at that finish line, and you will have done something REALLY BIG. And you will want to get on to the next one, I promise! I think of you a lot when I'm training, because we are a lot alike, and I know we will both have great (if slow) races!

  3. Colleen & Sara – thank you. 🙂 Whine whine whiney pants is gone, and now I just feel sorry for myself… is that better? 🙂 J/K

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