When to Fight
In a recent Instagram post, I shared my most recent layer and struggle–well, the external part of it. The response has been staggering–the emails pouring in–just like when I talked about my booze problemo for the first time. Summary: so many of us are struggling. With addiction. With pain. With trauma. With emotional abuse. With […]
You Can Quit Running When You are Nice To Yourself
I woke up this morning and went to 5:15am CrossFit class. And I hated myself hard today. Full self-loathing. This self-loathing behavior is usually on the back end of a food slippery slope, slide, fall and plop–which I have had the last few days. I was well-aware that I woke up in a bloated sugar […]
Triple Inspiration: Mirna Valerio, Rachel Joyce and Ben Dziwulski
Much like a duck paddling under the water, that’s been my life for the last few months. I don’t blog much these days, I know… but I am writing more than ever – with Triathlete Magazine, Women’s Running and of course, the TWO BOOKS that are landing in Spring and Fall of 2019. (Whew!) Regardless, […]
The Night the Darkness Almost Got Me
I attempted suicide eighteen years ago. I failed. Anthony Bourdain is dead. Kate Spade is dead. They didn’t fail at their attempts. I am saddened, truly devastated by these losses to the world. I failed, and I am glad that I was such a failure. The gifts of failure are plenty. This is the blog […]
Why Your Suffering is Real
Expectations are the enemy of progress and the creators of all sorts of crap. I mean, it makes total sense. If I expect a birthday cake and I get a birthday carrot, someone is going to pay dearly. However, if I expect nothing, and I receive an avocado? “An avocado! Thanksssss!” Aside from the connection […]
The Race Clock Ain’t The Only Clock
In 2013, I finished my first Ironman race with exactly 16 minutes to spare under the time cut-off. In 2015, I finished my third Ironman race with exactly 16 minutes to spare under the time cut-off. This week in CrossFit, I finished the Workout of the Day (“the WOD”) with 16 seconds to spare–under the prescribed […]
The Dry Drunk Routine
Someone recently talked behind my back: “You know, I’m just really tired of Meredith’s ‘dry drunk’ routine. Who CARES how sober she is?” My first instinct was: THAT person should care, because clearly they aren’t willing to face their problems. My next instinct is THIS: I really, truly don’t care if someone is tired of […]
I Do Three Things.
I have written many, many times about the importance of accepting ourselves as athletes, as runners, as triathletes. I have written over and over about the importance of not downplaying our accomplishments–no matter how big or how seemingly small. To own the athletes we are. To work hard to get better… but be thankful right where […]
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