…sometimes more than we realize.

Today is one of those days where I feel like a complete and utter failure.

I am missing my children…  I feel like I have failed them. Like I have missed out on loving them the best that I can.  That I have missed out for work. For triathlon. For many things.

I feel like a terrible daughter and wife and friend and employee… person in general. I feel like I have lost time with anger and fighting.  And not being the best I could—for myself, for my family.

(Yes, we have established that I am terribly hard on myself, in general.  ^^^ Case in point.)

Then, sitting at my desk and feeling overwhelmed and terrible, I came across this quote, and it made me stop…

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Today is important.

And each day should be given equal respect.

Every day is not a job interview. Or race day. Or a momentenous spot on the timeline of our lives…

But every day matters.  And I can do better today.

Every day is precious.

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And today, I am going to remember just that.

And as I was writing this, I was slapped in the face… I had forgotten something that happened this morning.

I am often reminded by one of my San Diego friends, Carrie, that I should try my best to see myself through the eyes of others.  But then I don’t often know what people think of me (and I try not to care), so then I get confused.  Ha… I know what she means though.  

So this morning, in the kitchen my son looked at me…

And he whispered, “I love you, Mom.  You are very, very pretty. And nice.”

I’m going to go with his opinion, with what he  saw in me this morning. [Even though I think he was bribing me for ice cream tonight.]

Today is important. Today I am going to be better than I was yesterday.  Oh, and today, I am pretty and nice. 🙂

And. So. Are. You.

Have a great weekend friends.

 

11 Responses

  1. I just got done watching John Legend’s new video “You and I.” Your post was the perfect compliment to his message. Now I’m crying even more. 😉

  2. awww such a sweet boy…when my kids say stuff like that I think, ya know i’m doing okay. My husband tells that all the time about being able to see myself through his eyes, he says i’m beautiful, but I beg to differ….he also thinks I can be fast, i’m currently training of NYC marathon in November…He’s done 3 Ironmans, he thinks I can do one too, I think he’s crazy! I really wish I could see what others saw or thought, while it might be scary it might actually give me the swift kick & confidence I need 🙂

    What I see in you is someone who is motivating and motivated in all aspects of her life, at least through the pictures you post 🙂 We all have our down days but every day is a new day!! Keep being awesome!!

  3. here’s a similar quote that i found on the inside of a dove chocolate bite a few years ago and remains pinned to my desk: “Today might not be perfect, but it still serves a purpose” Keeps me motivated!

  4. I can completely relate. And then my two older daughters will hug me and tell me “I love having you as my Mommy”…(as if they have a choice) and I’m reminded, and tell them how blessed I am to be their mother. And then I get a running hug from the 2 yr old…all is good. The strong morning bike ride was just an extra boost.

  5. Just found your blog after faithfully stalking you on IG for the last six months and I adore your honesty! Still reading through your blog, but I am heartened to know that I am not the only one that struggles with feeling like I am not a good enough …… <3

  6. I just found your book the other day and have already read it and love it! I too am an attorney (public defender), mom of two small kids, and chronically stressed. I love your energy, and thanks for making me laugh at some of your spot-on observations. Anyway, you’ve inspired me to do a triathlon, despite a number of hurdles in my path (you know, money, time, exhaustion, and argh, I just turned 40). I’m glad to have found your blog and will be checking in often! Thanks!

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