I am so flipping frustrated today. That’s really all I wanted to say. I had a rotten day. People are stupid and rotten. Just rotten would be fine.. but stupid too? Stupid is just insulting. And playing me for stupid… man, stupid.
I woke up at 4:30am, completed everything I was supposed to do today, including training, plus feeding/entertaining/getting beat up by children after my day job was over. I am so sick of my kids acting like I’m not here. “No stop that” and they just stare at me, like I’ve grown a fifth head. It’s ridiculous. I’ve tried everything. I am at the end of my rope. I am sick of doing everything. All the time. I’m sick of law. I’m sick of it all.
To top it off, my buns were absolutely kicked by a swim workout and a run today. Still… if I didn’t have training and the hope of triathlon right now, I’d be locked up. For something. How is something so painful, also so very relaxing and therapeutic? It seems like every single other thing right now is making me insane. Or, perhaps triathlon is insane….and everything else has traveled to that side too. And my whole life is insane. Oh, hell if I know.