Sometimes, the Past is Good
Living in the past and driving yourself crazy with regrets and “what ifs” is a tough way to live. No one wants to be stuck in the past, really. I think many of us are stuck in the past–reliving our “glory days” or the lost loves of our lives, or whatnot. Those are the kinds of “pasts” that we have to get away from. That’s the kind of shiznit that will make you nuts.
Luckily, my weightlifting “glory days” weren’t that great and neither were my relationships with boys, so I don’t live in the past that much.
Living in the moment and being present, right where I am, is something that I am working on… constantly. Not always rushing around to get better, do more, be more–but being grateful in my time and space and home. Every day is a little better when I focus on this. So living in the present is a good thing…
Sometimes, however, looking back to the past is beneficial.
Today, I got my buns back in the pool for the first time since this last round of sickness.
I was swimming and swimming, and I was feeling okay. But I couldn’t help but think, Wow, you’ve lost a lot of swimming fitness over the past few weeks.
So I was comparing my swimming to my past, faster days of swimming—which wasn’t good.
But then… I reached further back in my memory… in the way, way past. To about four years ago, when I put on a swim cap for the first time.
And then I thought about that swimming past. When I made it down on length of the pool, sputtering and coughing, and clinging to the wall and praying that I wouldn’t drown. Or my first open water swim.
Now that is a past worth remembering… because it reminded me of how far I have come. Once I remembered, it was as if my mind gave me a thirty-second slide show of recent accomplishments… sprint, Olympic, lake swim, river swim, half Iron, ocean swim, half Iron, cold water, Ironman, and 140.6…
Looking at the start of my swimming journey and zipping to the present gave me a wonderful perspective this morning.
I have so much further that I’d like to go… but it’s been a heck of a ride, filled with growth and accomplishments.
And I suspect, that if you do a quick slide show in your mind, you might just see something similar.
Happy Friday, friends.