So my last post got a surprisingly interesting response—not really comment-wise, but a flood to my email inbox-wise! Lots and lots of disappointment in my tone of the post and my attitude towards my upcoming race on Sunday (Ironman Florida 70.3).
Also, Coach Brett immediately texted me: I read your blog post. You need to get these crappy thoughts out of your head. You have had some really huge breakthroughs in your training and more quality training than ever.
Okay, okay. Geez, I didn’t think it was that bad…
Then the emails poured in:
You are so positive to everyone else. Get a grip and be positive to YOU! Go have a great race!
Lots and lots of:
You can do this! Just Keep Moving Forward! (Ah hem! Using my words against me!? Shame on you, Army!! 🙂 )
Okay, OK! OKLAHOMA!
I get it.
I think I need to go back and read my own damn book. (Nah. That book is LONG, yo!). So instead I went back and read my Ironman Couer d’Alene race report and this post: Things I Learned from my First and Last Ironman. (Yes, I sometimes re-read my own stuff. Does that make me narcissistic? Sure! (heh)….But really, I need to remind my own self of all the things I tell all of you. Clearly…)
Now, Florida is a half Iron, not a full, so much of the logistical things do not apply. However, this part really popped out for me:
Be grateful. I always say this, but it’s 10,000,000 times more true in a race that takes an entire day. Be thankful, race with a happy heart, and smile when you feel like crying—these things will save you more than you know.
As I swam this morning, I really decided to go out there on Sunday and ENJOY the race. At Augusta 70.3 last year, I raced with a poopy attitude, and I had a TOUGH (wanting to quit at Mile 2 on the run) kind of day. I was in throes of Ironman burnout, I know, but man—my attitude STUNK. And my race reflected it.
Coach Brett texted me and said, “90% of your race day outcome is due to your attitude.”
That sounded familiar!
I had written on the Augusta report: “I have been in a kind of slow burn-out since Ironman. That ridiculously long race took so much out of me… not as much physically as emotionally and psychologically. The fact that my body gave up on Mile 13 of the marathon, and my heart and brain carried me to the finish, just in time… well, that means my damn heart and mind are just worn out.”
My heart and brain carried me to the finish of Ironman. Not my body.
I was so motivated, so thrilled, so mentally tough for Ironman. I had a great day. It was hard as all hell, but one of the best experiences of my life (I might say BEST experience, but we, as women, are obligated to recount wedding days and births of children as the best days of life… I petition to put Ironman, wedding, and births on the same level. 🙂 Horrible. I know. Disregard. 🙂 )
Anyway. So THANK YOU all for your tough-love emails, texts and a few calls. I needed the “snap out of it sister” words, and it has really helped re-focus me on the reasons why I like to TRI. And with the Expert in the wave only a few minutes behind me, I think I am being “hunted” in this race—all the more reason to make it happen! 🙂
Here’s to a great race on Sunday!
Good luck to those of you racing Florida and NOLA and all the other races out there!